Jul 30, 2008

Hectic day + very sad day..

I woke up quite early this morning as starting from today, i have no more helper in my house. Yeah..my helper @ my maid is back to Sabah today. *sigh*

I know i will have a hectic day starting from today. Waking up early in the morning, preparing myself and son to school, then off to work then back from work. After a long discussion with hubby, we have agree to send son to day center after he finish his school. For the time being, daughter will be staying with my MIL at home. This arrangement will be our temporary solution until we can find a replacement for our helper now.
Son will start going to the day centre this friday. If only you can understand how sad I am now. Son probably can make the adjustment of his new environment in a very short period but daughter?? *teary eyes* When I walked out from home this morning, daughter was crying and keep calling me, "Mommy!! Mommy!! Cicah want to follow". Kesiannya!!!
My MIL called me shortly after I reached office saying my daughter wanted to talk to me. *sad* :
Me : Hello cicah (Inesha).. Daughter : Mommy!!!! Me : What cicah doing?? Daughter : Cicah watch Barney. Mommy??? Me : Yes! Mommy is here.. Daughter : Mommy?? Bye?? Me : Ok! Bye sayang!
I hung up my phone as quick as i can as I almost crying listening to daughter's sad voice. If i talk a minute longer with daughter, I'm sure i will cry and won't be able to stop. I'm not sure how she will take her days without 'kor-kor' with her at home.
Right now, I'm feeling so bad being my kids mother. Apa punya mother lah cannot take care own anak at home!! If only I have the guts to quit my job....

17 comments:

cindy said...

Aww.. kesian Cicah. But it won't be for long ma.. right? And besides, she'll probably miss her stay there once you found a new helper at home. :)

*Hugs*

Nick Phillips said...

Awww, come on, you're doing the best you can under the circumstances and I'm sure you would do more if you had other options right? So, cheer up, you're not a bad mother. A bad mother wouldn't even bother about their kids. Things will get better and like Cindy said, it won't be for long, right? :D

Ornest said...

Wah, hatimu mudah tersentuh pula :D Butul cakap si Nick tu KadusMama.. You have picked the best option for ur situation bah... Mmg susah pada mulanya tapi ndak lama tu, ok sdh. Don't worry ;)

Hombidai said...

kdmama - i wanted my wife to quit her job & take care of our JJ. I have phobia sending my son to a day-care centre, bad experience that is..

But, looking on another perspective, if she quits her job, then we will have financial problems.. that's for sure.

At the same time, she also feels that she need to work. Women nowadays need to work, according to her. It's because there's a lot of possibilities that might happens... touch wood. I agree..

So in this case, I am 50-50 whether you should quit or not... it's something to be thought-about really hard.... and i mean really hard

papajoneh said...

dont feel bad. You doing whatever needed for such situation. as long as they know you doing everything for them. :)

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Mama Mia said...

adeiii..hope you'll find help soonest possible. For the time being, u have to live with the situation. sure, it will be tiresome tp lama2 besa la bah tu.

me,talking from experience...

Just said...

Uduiii... kesian Cicah!! Hope she can adjust herself without Kor-kor around.. things will get better.. don't worry...

Lab papa said...

Berusahalah kadusmama (ala2 zipun)

My mom was also work to support our family. Last time there was no car. My mom went to my school to pick me and my brothers in Sembulan, send us back to Tg. Aru and then went back to work by bus.

You can do it Kadusmama! Ganbatte

Kadus_Mama said...

cindy ~ erk..i'm not really sure how long it will be..hope tia lama la..

nick phillips ~ :) I'm not a bad mother! yeah..i should have think positively..I hope this temporary arrangement won't be long..

ornest ~ Thanx..i hope all will be ok lepas nie

Kadus_Mama said...

hombidai ~ if i want to quit my job pun bukan this year lah..maybe next year..itu pun 'if'..

papajoneh ~ i hope my kids will understand that whatever i did is because i love them very much..

Kadus_Mama said...

mama mia ~ ntah lah dapat cari kah teda nie.. :( i know it will be tiresome, hope sia tidak sakit lah..nanti lagi susah..

just ~ iya! kesian my daughter..mesti dia mencari 'kor-kor' tu nanti.. :(

lab papa ~ somehow your comment make me feel soooooo much better..! thanx..I'll try my best to manage my family lah nie..

urang ranau said...

saya pun mo menangis bacan i post ko..kesian cicah kan.well what to do this is the best arrangement for the time being. harap2 ko dpt cari solution lain..capat2. malaysia boleh, kadus_mama pun boleh!!!

Little Inbox said...

Almost all mummies would like to be SAHM so that they can take care of own children and seeing them growing up. But this will only happend if we are financially stable. I truly understand your feeling. Probably this will be a good start for your son to mix up with other children. Kesian pulak your Inesha has no playmate liao.

Kobie Vanessa said...

ee kesian inesha..sedih jg story ko ni, maybe one day after I become a mother, baru sa betul2 rasa ni feeling ni..harap dapat maid cpt2, janganla quit kerja, susah cari kerja skrg oo..just be patient k

jppmom said...

being a working mother, i think i can relate to your feeling now..sakit that no one can understand it but us alone..me too hope can quit my job n be wit my kids but yalah, financial not permitting at d moment :(

Kadus_Mama said...

urang ranau ~ tu lah..kesian cicah! sudah lah dia sakit sekarang..

little inbox ~ Yeah..you are so right about that..my son already going to school now, so he has no probs with mixing with other kids, but daughter always with kor-kor..thats why i'm sad thinking of her playing all by herself at home..

kobie vanessa ~ iya..once ko sudah jadi mom, ko bulih rasa juga macam mana sedih sia sekarnag nie..

jppmom ~ :( sad kan jadi mother nie..if only kita ni kaya raya..nda payah lah susah2 mau pikir who is going to take care of our kids..

cicak said...

Why don't u apply cuti bah KadusMama. And spend your cuti with ur children berabis nih.