Very sad!

I just received a call from my dad.. Receiving a sad news during CNY is very sad.. My grandfather just passed away today.. I know he was quite old and sick.. But knowing he was no longer with us is still very hard and painful to swallow.. I can't go back..I'm scared..I dare not to see him for the last time.. I know i should pay my last respect to him..but i'm too scared now.. So i decided not to go back.. I can only pray for him.. May his soul rest in peace..Amen!