OMG!!!! I'm a bad mother

:( I admit that i am a bad mother. Today, both my kids have to go to the nursery as my MIL is going out to settle her business. So, early in the morning, i sent my daughter to the nursery, while hubby sent Son to school. I forgot to tell hubby to inform the teacher / driver who send my son back home after school, to send my son to nursery instead of sending him back home.

I was crazy rushing this morning, as i have to prepare both my kids; one to school, one to nursery and prepare myself to work. For your info, i slept almost 2am last nite, woke up at 3.30am when my daughter suddenly crying asking me to scratch her itchy legs..and woke up one more time at 5.15am to change my daughter cloth diaper. (telampau penuh kena kencing, bulih leaking lagi tu).

So i woke up in a very cranky state as i was very sleepy and tired. After i sent daughter to nursery, I made a mental notes like 100x on the way to office reminding myself to call and inform my son's driver to send him to nursery!

And guess what??????? I totally forgot to call the driver just now!!!! OMG!!!!! I feel soooooooo guilty now. What if she just drop my son and my son wander off??? Remember, my MIL is not at home..!! At 2pm, i suddenly remember about it, and was very panic when i called the driver. Luckily the nursery owner already inform the driver as she knows my son will go to the nursery today!!!!

But that not helping me from feeling guilty..!!! I really feel like a very bad mother now!!!!! :( How could i not remember to make the call just now!!!!!! :(

SAD~ :(

Yeah..I'm kinda tensed and sad at this moment! No..it wasn't because of my works...and No too..Its not about hubby or anybody making me sad or anything!! *sigh*

Before i start bla..blaaing about my sad story, just wondering, howz' your guys Valentine's Celebration??? Any nice romantic dinner??? And special gifts from you love one?? My Valentine's was celebrated in a grand manner. Yeah..me and hubby were having a 7 courses of dish at Chuai Heng Restaurant, 1-Utama. With the delicious steamed fish, sharkfin soup, butter prawns, and others, both of us were having trouble to walk as we were toooooo damn full. Yay!! My dinner was sound like toooooo grand, bah kan???? Hahahaa...Actually we were attending hubby's friend wedding dinner. Akaka not that we went to have a grand dinner ourselves. That's why we had a sooooo nyummmy dinner. For your info, we never celebrated Valentine's in a grand way. And this year valentine's is the same too. Only a wish and a kisses for each other.

Anyway, back to my sad story..!! I'm really heavy hearted to tell you guys about this. For the next 2 weeks or maybe more, I won't be able to blog 24 hours (macam lah bah betul-24 hours kan!!) like i used to previously. I seriously need to cut 1/2 of my blogging time due to the coming test / exam for all my 4 papers!!! *sob-sob* Sedihnyaaaaa hati ku ini!!! For one year +++, blogging has been part of my daily activity, and now..i won't be able to do it 'fulltime' already..!! I will still visit your blog and do a little commenting, but i'm not going to do a posting regularly.

The truth is, I thought i can manage my time for working, studying, for my kids, blogging and manage my house, but i was wrong..! I cannot do everything with only 24hours a day!! So after much thinking while driving back from my lectures yesterday, i made a decision to cut down my blogging time!!! *sob..sob again* (tak kan i don't want to care my kids pulak) Well, it's only temporary solution lah actually!! It's not that i'm going to be dissapeared from blogoshere forever and ever..!! and of course if i get a good offer $$$$ to do a posting in my blog, i don't think spending 30 mins of time will do any harm!!! Heheheheee

So thats about me today..! My exam will be held on 1st Mac...and i have to do like 10 assignments within this 2 weeks..!! Matai lah nie!! But thats only me...to you guys, hope to read a nice and crazy story from you... :) till then ~tata~

KaDusMama sot already!

I think i'm going to be 'sot' in a short while..! I really need 36 hours a day instead of 24 hours we are having now. Seriously...an extra hours for me to finish up everything will be nice!! Bah let me story-story on what had happened to me since 12am today..

:: I slept around 2am..and woke up at 7.45am..(I took 1/2 day emergency leave today) :: Prepare Son to school.. :: Sekali, hubby has no shirt to wear for work!! OMG!! How could i forget to iron his working shirt..Kesian, he has to iron his own shirt while i prepare son to school.. :: Then after Hubby and son went off, i spent at least 20 minutes to fold super banyak unfolded clothes.. ::Then, i ironed another super banyak clothes (hubby's and mine), and that took about 1 1/2 hour to be finished.. :: Clean my house.. :: Bath my daughter.. :: Cooked..and feed daughter :: Fetch Son from school.. :: Bath and feed son.. :: Shower myself and prepare to work.. :: After i was done, drag both my kids to the nursery for 1/2 day today..(My MIL is not feeling really well, so my kids have to go nursery) :: Drop them at nursery and vroooooooommed off to office..! :: Have to endure gila babi jam to office.. :: And finally reached office at 1.37pm..

You see lah.. within 5 1/2 hours I have to rush my life to finish soooooo many things! Thats why i need extra hour for myself to finish up whatever needed to be done here in office, at home and my assignments..!

Sot already lah kepala nie..! After finish all my work in office, need to rush back home and cook dinner..! *faint* But...i still have time to play with eggs in office!! hahahaaa will blog about it later, once i managed to make the egg standing..

Bah itu saja lah my story today..till then.. ~tata~

Its not easy to be a mommy!

Nothing really special happened today..My day has been ok so far; well don’t count me screaming early in the morning today. Hehehe!! Sometimes my kids do try my patience! Like today, I woke up at 7.15am, preparing to work as fast as I can and need to prepare son to school as well. At 7.45am, I woke son’s up only to receive the answer “NO!!!!! I don’t want to go to school, I still want to sleep!!!”. I might tolerate son’s behavior if he is not doing it everyday. But today, I went ‘Kaboooommmmmm’ when he gave me that answer again. First, he doesn’t want to go to the Day Care Center anymore, and now he doesn’t want to go to school????? I hate it when I have to raise my voice early in the morning to get son ready to school. Imagine I have to say “NOW!!!!!!” to get him to wake up. *sigh*. Just when I was preparing son’s breakfast and drink to bring to school, daughter woke up and started to wail (Full volume, mind you!!). She demanded her milk and was crying for me to carry her around. Arghhhhhhh!!! Imagine, me, still not fully ready to work, with son not wanting to wake up and daughter wailing for her milk. I don’t know what keep me sane after having to deal with a very hectic life for a month now. Well, just imagine this situation: Daughter : *just woke up* MOMMY!!!!!!!!!!! UWAHHHHH!!!!! (Daughter crying) Me : *running inside the room* Yes! Mommy here.. Daughter : I want milk *half closed eyes* Me : Ok!! Wait for a while..Mommy go to the kitchen first, ok! Daughter : NO!!!!! (Crying again) Me : What happened??? Daughter : N’cha don’t want to stay here.. I carried daughter to the kitchen and make a bottle of milk for her. Me : Nah, Inesha’s milk.. Daughter : I DON’T WANT MILK!!!!! Me : (Ngrrrrrrrr!!!!) Why??? Ok! Ok! Mommy drinks your milk??? Daughter : Ok *sobbing* Me : *pretended to drink the milk* Daughter : MOMMY!!!!!! I WANT MY MILK!!!!! (Cry super loud this time) Me : *rushed to her side* Here..here! Drink your milk.. Daughter : I DON'T WANT MILK!!!!!! And daughter has succeeded making me insane early in the morning! I don’t know why son and daughter are so clingy to me now. I know I’m their mother, but how come they didn’t fuss a lot when they are with Daddy or Grandmother. Why me??? *tsk! Tsk! Tsk!* . Maybe I should stop working and spend more time with my kids? I might get bored after few months at home but hey, I can study while caring my kids, right? With so many available online courses, I can pick whatever courses I want. Maybe I can become a medical assistant?? Hehe!! What say you?? I know there are medical assistant schools online available now. I only need to study for 6 – 8 weeks (or maybe longer), and I can get the Medical Assistant Certificate. The course fees aren’t that expensive too. Some only cost around $645. Cheap huh?? It will be a great bonus for me to spend more time with my kids, learn something new at the same time and become a medical assistant in the future. With the flexible program schedule, I can always have my class anywhere, anytime. Hehe Interesting, isn't it?? *start dreaming* Well, will see if I’m going to be a SAHM soon. I know I’m not ready yet, but if my kids really need me to be with them, I might change my path from working mom to Stay-at-home-mommy! Just wait and see…..